I wrote this early last year in a mad free writing session... Enjoy!

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In the midst of all my happiness, tragedy and plights, I have been molded in to the person I am now. A Gay man who is I am searching the deep and shallow waters in order to gain understanding. Time invested Seemed lost to the violent wind of uncertainty.

I will not stay in the house and mope and ponder my issues no longer. The world and its light is shining on my face. I will build friendships and advance in a way agreeable to my self and God to the best of my ability. Whether it is spending time with a new friend and treating myself to a lonely movie (which I do often). I am happy that I am regaining myself slowly but surely. I will not subject myself to abuse. I will not live in the past but learn from it. I know now that the Gay man does not want to be alone. He seeks companionship and hopes finally "He's" the one.
The one to walk through the decades of human life with, one who shares the same Goals and Views with Harmony.

I am searching for harmony with in myself only then will I be able to give fully to another. At times it seems that I have wasted my valuable time. I know what love is because I have been shown love in the true sense in my youth. When some one says they love you
You will know that its true because they demonstrate it through actions, When a relationship has been tested and refined with time it becomes unbreakable. Love really does have a meaning and a definition. People who really love each other will forgive each other, that means: "Love is long-suffering and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, does not get puffed up, does not behave indecently, does not look out for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of the injury. It does not rejoice over unrighteousness but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. "Now, however, there remain faith, hope, love, these three: but the greatest of these is love." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7, 13

In Short Love Never Fails...

Be it Love of Self, Neighbor, Spouse or God.

Meet My Brother Jeffrey

This is my Brother Jeffrey. Growing up we have become very close.
He is such a loving person... He has been gone for some time now. He has been in jail Since: July, 1993. He writes me all the time and I think he will be home this summer. My relationship with my brother Jeffrey begins when I was 10 years old. I remember our daily trips to the park to play baseball with his older friend’s everyday. One Winter it snowed very heavily. I remember hauling my red sled with my younger brother Danny. Jeffrey would wake up early in the morning and take me to Fort Green Park where we would spend all day sledding and playing in the snow. I remember climbing up the tallest hill in the park. Once I climbed to the top of the hill I could see the whole snow covered park, it was beautiful. I then climbed on to my red sled and kicked off. I was going faster and faster down this hill flying past the trees and down the hill at top speed. As I approach the bottom of the hill still gaining speed with frightening velocity I spotted a flight of stairs in my path and before I knew it skidded off the top of the steps... I was in mid air... I was flying! I must have been 10 feet off the ground, at that instance, time seemed to stand still. Next thing I notice was the heavy traffic of Myrtle Avenue. As I descended from my flight, my hart was pounding out of my chest. I was heading strait for the busy street. I then braced myself as I slammed to the ground. I almost barely hit a few people as I slid toward traffic at top speed I was scared out of my mind! Suddenly, I was lifted out of the sled and pulled to stable ground. My sled kept going and was run over by the street cars. I was saved that day from near death. After seeing my ruined sled, I looked to see who saved me... It was my brother Jeffrey. There are many other instances of such bonding with my brother Jeffrey.

This is the one that still remains clear as day in my mind. He is such a beautiful person and I miss him dearly. It has been a very long time since I've seen him. Hopefully he will be well when I see him again.

To be continued...

I Love you Eric!

Okay! After you all finish vomiting from my heart felt words! I just had a Tom Cruise moment! I just want to say that there is nothing wrong with our relationship. My bloggs are to provoke thought and to inspire people to love themselves and each other, and if you have a comment dont keep it to yourself just post it and ask me!

TOP 20 SIGNS HE IS CHEATING

When it comes to cheating, Gay Men are king. Gay Men cheat at cards, Gay cheat on their taxes, and far too often, Gay Men cheat on their partners. According to the Ashley Madison Agency, approximately 50% to 60% of men will engage in an extramarital tryst at some point in their lives.

The reasons are myriad, but the tell-tale signs of propensity for infidelity are typically the same. Gain insight into your own potential cheating heart by reading the top 10 signs you're about to have an affair.

1. Long, irrational excuses for absences usually littered with tedious, unnecessary details.

2. Noticeable change of behavior in your partner when around that certain person.

3. Frequent mentioning of his name. Example: "Well Mike says …" and "Mike thinks…" and "The way Mike explained it….."

4. Definite lack of passion. Example. "I'm tired tonight." or "We just did it a month ago."

5. Sudden need to hang out with "friends, Family" at night and on weekends.

6. Sudden job related out-of-town trips, late night meetings.

7. Long unexplained absences when out together at social functions.

8. Introduction of new sexual techniques which seem very familiar to your partner, but completely uncharacteristic of your shared sexual experiences.

9. The wearing of new jewelry or clothing that your partner would never buy for himself and you didn't buy it for them.

10. Excessive primping or grooming for "routine" outings.

11. Your sudden and frequent attendance at social events alone.

12. Catching your lover in little lies.

13. Hiding his cell phone and keeping it on silent.

14. Friends asking about His absence at social events your lover attended but you didn't know about.

15. Excessive denial by your partner about something being wrong in your relationship. For ex. "If you need to go to couples therapy, go alone. There's nothing wrong with me."

16. Erratic mood swings Ex. One minute it's "I love you" and the next it's "Leave me alone…I need my space."

17. Demonstrated disinterest in just about everything you do or say. Your partner is emotional detached.

18. She's working late more often, although no one answers when you call the office.

19. Your partner's immediate showering, brushing teeth or changing clothes upon entering the house

20. Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays seem like obligatory time together or seem like a chore

If you are suspicious of a cheating mate use this as your reference!

I remember expressing to a friend that we need to discover ourselves... Not who we want people to see us as but, as God sees us. Naked and without the covering that hides what we truly are. Beautiful...

By: Alex Nieves

Sorry for the filler blogging but I thought this was funy as shyt!!!

I've been tagged!

If you were to be the opposite sex for one day, what would you do?
Take allot of pictures!!! Will I still be attracted to men!!??? HELL YEA!!!

If you had to name the most difficult thing about being a teenager today, what would you say?
I would say lack of perspective! Teens today lack that…


If you had to name the most embarrassing moment of your life, when was it?
I must have been 6 and I was caught by my mom making out in the closet with a neighbor kid…

All I remember was yelling and being put in my room.


If you had to name the one personality trait that you have tried the hardest to change in yourself, what would you say?
Well I try to think the best of people before the worst! And that’s difficult because when some one wrongs you the first reaction would be anger. So I try to ask questions first and whip ass later!


If you could go back for one minute to the Garden of Eden and give Adam advice, what would you say?
There were two trees people don’t know about actually! One was “the Tree of the knowledge of good and bad” the other was the “tree of life”. Adam was only punished because he disobeyed God and ate of the “Tree of the Knowledge of good and bad” and lied about it. His punishment was death to him and all his offspring. Now the tree of life was a tree that would allow a person to live forever. I would ask him to eat both! Then he would know good and bad and live forever…

If you were Madonna, what would you do for your next publicity stunt?
I would kiss Oprah!

If you could have a lifetime 50 percent discount in any single store at your local mall, which store would it be in?
Saks on 5^th Avenue baby!!!!!

If you could have God perform one miracle today, what would you want it to be?
No sickness or diseases!

If you could spend next New Year’s Eve doing anything, what would you do, and with whom?

I would be in Las Vegas on a top floor suite in the Bellagio Hotel, We would slow dance on our balcony to the music of Frank Sinatra, have a beautiful dinner with my baby, toward the strike of midnight make love on satin white sheets…

If you were to set your country’s immigration policy, what would it be?
This country was founded by immigrants! I would set American Immigration schools in bordering countries and teach them English and represent them in education and find them jobs. I would transport illegal aliens and place them in these schools to give them a proper foundation for their search of a better life for Them or their families.

If you were given the power to settle the issue of gays in the military, what policy would you set?
Is that a gay mans fantasy or what!!! To be surrounded by hot men with muscles showering and living together… Woo Mo power to ya! Can I come! LOL! I would allow it!

If you could have one person you have lost touch with call you up tonight and invite you to dinner, who would you want it to be?
My Childhood best friend… His name is Jason Colazzo. He was a blond haired Puerto Rican (rare!). He was so much fun! We used to play and climb on shyt and explore stuff and travel places… We were 10.

If you could change one thing about your love life, what would it be?
I would mix 5 cups of Love with a table spoon of passion and a stick of trust,

Of course some sugar and I will bake it oh high for a life time.

If you could have prevented one book from ever having been written, which book would it be?
The Mein Kampf (Or Hitler’s Book named “My Fight”)

In his book, Hitler divides humans into categories based on physical appearance, establishing higher and lower orders, or types of humans. At the top, according to Hitler, is the Germanic man with his fair skin, blond hair and blue eyes. Hitler refers to this type of person as an Aryan. He asserts the Aryan is the supreme form of human, or master race.

If you could have one thing made out of pure gold, what would you choose?
Mr. Scrooge’s money bin!

If God were to whisper one thing in your ear, what would you like Him to say?
I am always with you and I will protect you and guide you…

Well kiddies Summer is fast approaching and love is in the Air and in your Zodiac sign. If you are a fire sign this summer will be HOT HOT HOT! If your are a Earth sign you may gravitate tward love and fun faster than you think! If you are an Air Sign you just might get swept off your feet and blow your mind and mabe more! If you are a Water sign all I can say is splish splash baby!!

the Fire Signs

When it comes to kissing, Aries, Leo, Sagittarius – the Fire Signs – are hot, hot, hot! Passion runs high here – almost as much as patience runs low! If you’re not the type to kiss on the first date, you might intrigue them. But wait past the second date, and you can kiss a fire sign goodbye! Quantity matters just as much as quality here – and it’s all expected with a quickness! Likewise, fire spreads… so you might not be the only person your beloved Aries, Leo or Sag is kissing!

On the upside, Fire Signs have a lot of confidence, bravado to last a life time and your lips will certainly feel enlivened after a first foray. PDA is fine by these exhibitionists, and so are adventures. If you can live up to their expectations, and offer something in return a Fire Sign may be the way to go… Just remember, if you’re shy, you need not apply!

Earth Signs

Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn – the Earth Signs – are known for sensuality. Like their relationships, they expect kisses to be deep and lasting... once they’re committed. Prior to that, things may be a bit chaste! Those looking for a quick thrill keep moving! It’s certainly not here!

An Earth Sign is the last person you can expect to try and rope you into a kiss too quickly. In fact, these grounded individuals may wait so long to go in for a smooch that you wonder if they’re even interested! But stick around a little longer and you may find it was worth the wait!

If nights snuggled up on the couch in the company of someone special, traditional romance, and a cozy sort of love appeal to you, then start smooching! An Earth Sign may plant your feet on the ground for good!

The Air Signs

Air signs are known to have their heads in the clouds – intellectually speaking. They like things that stimulate their minds – and their mouths are no different. Known for the gift to gab, Gemini, Libra and Aquarius are most likely to make a move after spending a long time conversing – sharing their dreams, hopes and opinions. Spark their interest and it can be quite exciting – if a bit sporadic.

If dramatic moments are appealing (but a Fire Sign is intimidating), an Air Sign is the way to go. For instance, you may be in the middle of one of those deep conversations and find yourself pinned up against the wall for a meaningful kiss. Va-va-va-voom!

Now, if you expect that quick burst of passion to go somewhere more substantial, quit while you’re ahead. Just as fast as your Air Sign swept you up in the moment, he or she will be back to what you were doing beforehand. Still, you won’t have lost that movie moment. If spontaneity is your surefire turn on, it’s time to start flying high!

Water Signs

Known for being intuitive and expressive lovers, Water Signs prove that still waters run deep. While they may be a bit shy at first, there’s not a more passionate person to be found than a Cancer, Pisces or Scorpio! In fact, their propensity to give pleasure as well as receiving it is the basis for their reputation as the zodiacs greatest lovers -- at least for those who can handle all that attention! Their kisses can be a transcendental experience. But of course, you’ve got to be ready to transcend, and not everyone is up for that kind of intensity!

All of that aside, the Water Signs' desire to please you as much, if not more than they want to please themselves makes them versatile. They’re likely to find just what you’re looking for and deliver it. Kissing’s chameleons are skilled at making anybody who puckers up feel like they’ve found perfection. But beware. These individuals don’t take their romantic endeavors lightly. Savage kissing may lead to savage attachment! However, if you’re up for experiencing the rapture, get swept up in this wave!

A Guy calls his boss one morning and tells him that
He is staying home because He is not feeling well.
"What's the matter?" The boss asks
"I have a case of anal glaucoma," He says in a weak voice.
"What the hell is anal glaucoma?"
"I can't see my ass coming into work today."

I am sorry for the filler blogging... But I though this was funny as hell!!!!

Secrets Confessions

We all have secrets some harmless, some Dark some funny and some
cute some sexy and some painful. I want to know your secrets. You
can email me your secrets at OhWordU2@Aol.com or Post your Secret anonymously and share them with the world. I will feature your secrets on my blog.

Confessions:

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Dating someone who's HIV-positive

I’ve recently been to an AIDS Conference and have
gained some great information, here are some questions
from persons concerned with their sexual
behavior:

Dear OhWordU2,


I recently began dating a guy who is HIV positive. I know how it is transmitted and the risks involved, but I was wondering if there are any statistics out about being infected in my similar situation. How high are my chances of contracting it if we are careful?

Signed, Confused




Dear Reader,
Let's begin by saying that there's no way for a sexually active person to be 100 percent "sure" that s/he is safe from HIV. But, there are many ways to make one's risk low, or even negligible, even for an HIV-negative person in a relationship with someone who is HIV-positive. Several studies have been done on relationships similar to yours, where one partner is HIV-positive and the other negative (a.k.a., mixed status or HIV-discordant couples).


A study published in 1994 in The New England Journal of Medicine looked at 256 heterosexual mixed status couples. Of the 124 couples that consistently used condoms, none of the HIV-negative partners were infected. Among the 121 couples that did not consistently use condoms, 12 (about 10 percent) of the HIV-negative partners became infected. Additional studies found similar results. Consistent and correct condom usage is the key to lowering the risk of HIV transmission in mixed status
couples, whatever their sexuality. Condoms are highly effective in preventing the transmission of HIV, but sometimes fail. Those failures are most often due to incorrect usage or user error.


To reduce condom failure:

Use water-based lubes, never oil-based ones such as petroleum jelly, cooking oil or shortening, or hand-lotion — they can weaken the latex.

Keep condoms away from heat or direct sunlight.

Check the expiration dates printed on the package. Condoms that are too old or expired, or have packaging that appears to be weathered or deflated, need to be thrown away.

Carefully open the condom with your fingers, trying not to tear it with your fingernails (or teeth). The studies mentioned above dealt with condom usage for vaginal and anal intercourse, not oral sex.

HIV transmission from receiving oral sex?

Dear OhWordU2,

What are the risks of HIV infection for the passive partner of oral sex?

Signed, Worried



Dear Worried,

One of the questions to ask yourself is: are you only concerned about yourself in this situation, or are you also considerate of your partner's risk in orally pleasuring you? For the passive partner, or person receiving oral sex, there's little chance of contracting HIV, although it's difficult to pinpoint the exact act during which HIV has been transmitted because people rarely have only one type of sexual activity. In the case of fellatio (oral sex on a man), the HIV virus theoretically could gain entry to the oral sex recipient through the opening on the tip of the penis, or through an open cut or lesion on the penis. Keep in mind that if you receive oral sex, however, you mainly expose yourself to saliva, which has negligible concentrations of HIV. Other sexually transmitted infections (STIs), like herpes or gonorrhea, however, can still be transmitted to the person receiving oral sex. The risk of HIV infection is greater for the partner who gives oral sex. Recent research presented at the 7th Conference on Retroviruses and Opportunistic Infections in February of 2000 concluded that 8 of 122 cases in an HIV-transmission study were possibly attributable to oral sex, which implies that although going down (giving oral sex) on a man is much lower in risk than other sexual behaviors, there's still a possibility for transmission. Of these 8 infected people, however, some reported having had recent dental work or having cuts in their mouths, meaning that HIV transmission by oral sex may be associated with cuts, lesions, or irritation of the tissues in the mouth. Giving or receiving oral sex provides opportunities for other STIs to be transmitted if performed unprotected. You and your partner need to discuss what risks are and are not acceptable to you both and then make your decisions based on your sexual behaviors and the information provided. Feel free to call the CDC National


HIV/AIDS Hotline for more specific facts and figures at 800.342.AIDS (-2437).




OhWordU2

WHAT PERSONALITY TYPE ARE YOU





The Perfectionist


Perfectionists are realistic, conscientious, and principled. They strive to live up to their high ideals.
How to Get Along with Me
Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.
Acknowledge my achievements.
I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am.
Tell me that you value my advice.
Be fair and considerate, as I am.
Apologize if you have been unthoughtful. It will help me to forgive.
Gently encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight, but hear my worries first.




The Helper


Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.
How to Get Along with Me
Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
Share fun times with me.
Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
Let me know that I am important and special to you.
Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.
In Intimate Relationships
Reassure me that I am intersting to you.
Reassure me often that you love me.
Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.




The Achiever


Achivers are energetic, optimistic, self-assured, and goal oriented.
How to Get Along with Me
Leave me alone when I am doing my work.
Give me honest, but not unduly critical or judgmental, feedback.
Help me keep my environment harmonious and peaceful.
Don't burden me with negative emotions.
Tell me you like being around me.
Tell me when you're proud of me or my accomplishments.

The Romantic


Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.
How to Get Along with Me
Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!



The Observer


Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.
How to Get Along with Me
Be independent, not clingy.
Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.
I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.
Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.
Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.
If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.
don't come on like a bulldozer.
Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.


The Questioner


Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.
How to Get Along with Me
Be direct and clear.
Listen to me carefully.
Don't judge me for my anxiety.
Work things through with me.
Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
Laugh and make jokes with me.
Gently push me toward new experiences.
Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

The Adventurer


Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.
How to Get Along with Me:

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

The Asserter


Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

The Peacemaker


Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.
How to Get Along with Me
If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advatage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.


WHAT PERSONALITY ARE YOU?

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